Dieting and GRUMPY
Food for this family is a huge chore. Worse than the regular drudgery of grocery shopping and cooking- which I hated and wasn't good at, respectively, long before I got married. It's my least favorite of all the work I do to take care of the family. And to add to this I have an addiction to food. Seriously. Growing up we really didn't eat healthfuly. And food makes you feel good. Well, for a while at least. Now that I am getting older I need to consider the health risks to extra fat. Especially belly fat. I was borderline for Gestational Diabetes and Pregnancy Induced Hypertension in my last trimester with my son. I certainly don't want to develop Diabetes, now. It's all down hill once that happens. And I want a healthy heart and arteries. All of these are related. So I have been trying to take control. It's very hard for me. This is the one area of my life I have always struggled with. My sister can cut calories for a whole week and seem to breeze by. Not me. I'm a grumpy, hungry mess. I am hungry all day. But I am doing it. I'm concerned about managing my weight long term, as well as loosing weight now. It feels like more than I can do by myself. So I have to pray about it. In the past I could do a killer workout and eat whatever I want. Can't do everything I used to, so I need to mind the calories. I have been shooting for 1200 a day. Some days more, but always less than 1400. I lean heavily on Healthy Choice foods. I have to mark them with a marker to boldly remind everyone that they contain milk. I've never kept food with dairy before, but I'm trusting my 4 yr old son can't microwave his own meal. I have been learning how to diet with regular food, too. I even have some eating out choices. I have lost 7 pounds. I know some/most of that is the initial water weight and it will get harder. I was afraid to blog about it- afraid to fail again. I am very proud of myself. It's early though and I need to stay motivated. I have been doing some light workouts and trying not to give up everything I like. My saddest moment was realizing that there was no way I could fit cold stone premium ice cream in the plan. I would have to get the kids size Fat Free sinless stuff and still account for those calories by cutting my meals. I've never liked diet ice cream. I doubt I'd be happy with it. Instead I just go without. That will have to be my very special occasion treat, knowing the scale won't drop that week. I am addicted to food and dairy was my favorite. Ice cream was my favorite food overall. Sad. But true. (Buh Waaaaahhhhhhh!) OK I'm done crying now. See this is how grumpy I have been. God Bless you people (KC) who can diet and still be pleasant. I need to get a grip. What would I do if I couldn't complain in my blog?
