Little Self Control

That's what I have.  Just a little self control, not much really.  I got chocolate ice-cream last week.  But I got the kid's size tiny scoop, and no toppings with mine, so not as bad.  I have lost 14 pounds so far, but it doesn't show, other than my face doesn't look quite as puffy.  My husband couldn't really tell, and he sees more of me than anyone.  Ha.  Some weeks are harder to diet than others.  This is a hard week.  I've allowed myself a small snack when I really need it, even if I go over 100+ calories.  I am trying to stay busy.  I've started writing more and I'm reading about 3 books a week.  Trading one habit for another, like my sister says.  And a good distraction.  Of course I could probably spend more time cleaning the house.  Could...  but probably won't.  
So the Turquoise Rainbow is doing well and tonight I noticed three Cherry Shrimp Fry.  I had a berried female, so I guess some of them made it.  Spectacular considering they are in with a UV filter and two very hungry Dwarf Gouramis.  And also the fact that I just vacuumed the bottom of the tank for the first time in months, yesterday.  They are smaller than a piece of rice and translucent.  I saw three, I figure there are more.  There are actually about 12 adult Cherries in there, and 3 Amano/Yamato shrimp.  I rarely see any of them.  Maybe they will increase their numbers enough to be more noticeable.  I still plan on buying another Rainbow next week.  
We are watching the IA news to see if China stops referrals during the Olympics.  I fully expect that they will.  I am finding peace with the wait.  Our agency has started sending weekly lists of Waiting Children, and I wish they wouldn't.  We really need to stick with the plan.  All of the reasons we chose this adoption course are still valid.  And our insurance sucks.  So I have moved my picture of our daughter forward a few years and accepted that our boy will be much older than her.  That's ok.  We weren't doing it for him.  :)  He just thinks everything is about him.  :)  We had a little discussion about the number of waiting boys who are older and healthy.  Their only 'special need' is their age.  This has a real pull.  If we want a third after the second is home, it would be a good option for us.  A way to have another boy, a child who will share experiences with our Chinese American daughter, and old enough to be a playmate immediately.  I doubt we will qualify for China again, under the new rules, except maybe with the waiting child program, anyway.  It's all conjecture at this point.  We have invested everything to bring home our daughter, we can't really choose another option now.  And of course, we may not be able to do it again later at all.  May not want to.  But if we do, I'll probably have had my fill of diapers!  :)  This list has been on my mind so much.  There's a little boy who's special need is that he had a broken leg.  It's healed with a hump over the bone.  Just like mine.  He's in the 0-2 yrs age range.  At his age, an ortho should be able to fix anything but a growth plate fx, right?  I have been very close to emailing for more info.  I hate these lists though.  If we chose the Waiting Child route, we picked the wrong agency.  And again, we are already on a different path, and would have to redo some stuff.  I get the feeling that many of the bigger agencies have parents in competition over a child's file.  Not a positive thing.  So I tell myself that this little boy will be meeting his family in a few months and we wouldn't have been picked anyway.   But we picked the right agency for what we wanted.  A big one to go to bat for us and make everything smooth in-country.  It'll work out.  I think I just need to stop reading the emails that say "Waiting Child".  This is the reason we couldn't go to Ukraine.  I couldn't pick a child.  Not one of so many.  I'd rather that cup be passed to someone else.  Ok.  Enough of this.  My original point is that I feel more settled lately with knowing that we DS probably won't have a sister until he's 7.  It'll all work out the way it supposed to.  Maybe by then we'll actually be able to afford another child.  Just kidding.  parents can't ever afford the coming child.  So we just don't think about it!